And you asked me what I want this year, and I tried to make it calm and clear,
just a chance that maybe we’ll find better days
last night, i dropped 8 seconds, broke 3 minutes, and placed third.
all in one night. in one event.
IM SO HAPPY :)))))
also i may have a concussion so i’m not allowed to do anything except summer work….. aka i’d rather die.
I choose to just sit around and say “I’m screwed, I’m so screwed” about all of my schoolwork instead of actually doing it.
i don’t know why but recently i feel like i just made this unconscious/conscious decision in my life to finally stop caring so much about what other people think about me. i suggest you do the same. it feels really nice.
And here’s a big fuck you to my parents who don’t even trust me to drive to the pool WHEN I’VE DONE NOTHING TO MAKE YOU LOSE TRUST
I guess since I’m about to fall asleep and that it’s almost July I should write out my thoughts, right?
Well, I eaten pretty regularly for a month tomorrow.
And I officially don’t know how much I weigh.
This is a good feeling.
Also, I’d much rather live a messy life with paintings on my walls and an unmade bed and my hair in a swimmers bun than be perfect. I’d rather sit at home and set off firecrackers with the nerdy middle schoolers on my street than go to some lame ass movie with you. And I’d rather swim than dance.